Faded Mask

Beneath her shady excuse
There lay a world of abuse
She knew that she can’t hide her face
Beneath this mask of disgrace
She wondered if she would ever be brave
Brave enough to speak her mind
She had to behave
Though she wished she could rewind
Rewind the last fifteen years
Try to avoid all the tears
The tears of frustration
From the rifts with her mom
The tears of revelation
When figuring what went wrong
She had lost all her friends
She doesn’t know where it ends
She prayed with all her heart
For the strength to live a life apart
Amidst the bustling crowd
She wanted to shout out loud
That she was all alone
That she didn’t want to go home
For she would have to return to the pain
Her tears mingling with the rain
She thought of why she needed to live
Why she would have to forgive
The answer was clear
She would have to live for the fear
The fear of being selfish
And to live with her one unfulfilled wish.

If

If I could catch a rainbow
And put it in my pocket
Look at the face
That fills this golden locket
If I could have you love me
The way I love you
If I could find a way to believe
That all this will come true

The angels that make you divine
That toast your life with wine
Gave me reason to believe
That you and me can be
Am I a fool to want
To believe this unseemly dream
Why would those winged creatures grant
Such a wish to me?

Wrong Right

All the words I want to say
Come out as tears at night
This is why I am afraid
To wrong this right
You’re a thousand miles away
When you’re lying by my side
You say I make your day
But forget me by night

Right is what is left to me
Wrong is what I got to be
If I want you in my life
I say sorry and lose the fight

You say that they’re our friends
Yet you stand so far
Alone you hold me oh so close
With them, not even in your heart
I need a guy that flaunts me
Yet I’m in love with you
Always been too blind to see
All you say to me isn’t true.

Right is what is left to me
Wrong is what I got to be
If I want you in my life
I say sorry and lose the fight

But now…

Right is what is left to me
And that is what I want to be
I don’t need you in my life
So forget the sorry and end this fight.

True Lies

Looking down the dark alley
She thought of the serendipity
The chance of meeting HIM
Here in this dark alley
She looked at the crouching figure
While he was waiting to pull the trigger
But she felt no nagging fear
Nor did she shed a tear
All she did was wait
Leaving her life to fate
She closed her eyes
Waiting for her well deserved prize
As she waited in the dark alley
She suddenly felt her knees give away beneath her body
Her eyes darting about, her head moving unsteadily
But the irony was that she fell
Not because of the bullet
But because she knew she was going to hell
Because she hadn’t cleared her debt…
She knew she deserved to die
She knew she shouldn’t have lied
For what she did was unforgivable
And now he was unstoppable
There in the dark alley
She lay there with not a stir

As she felt the walls close in on her

Just one of those

The wild search for eternal bliss
Found in the depths of a passionate kiss
Lost in this world of insensate things
Love is like a lapwing without its wings
For centuries man has craved
Many wars he has braved
To be an element of this vicious cycle
Called Life, outlined by many an oracle
Looking past the dreadful deeds
The tempests into which it leads
The earth’s most emotional being
Lives for that euphoric feeling
Found in the wetness of a happy tear
One that’s dark though crystal clear.

An Atheist's Heaven

The dictionary definition of Heaven : "the abode of God, the angels, and the spirits of the righteous after death; the place or state of existence of the blessed after the mortal life." This doesn't indicate that an atheist, a non-believer cannot experience a thing called heaven. Everyone has their own heaven but it doesn't have to be up in the sky with the angels. And you definately don't have to wait till you die to go to heaven. Heaven is a place on earth. For a beggar, luxury is heaven. For an insomniac, sleep is heaven. Heaven can be sight for a blind man, music to a deaf man, the first breath after nearly drowning or the first bite of food after days of starvation. The conception that heaven is for those who've done right and have managed either to never commit sins or have redeemed them all is false. To savour the simple pleasures of life without hesitation or doubt, to give into temptation once in a while and to succumb to our deepest desires can welcome us to the pearly gates of heaven, and to enter all you need to do is know how to live with a smile in your heart. I want to paint the walls of my heaven and i'm thinking blue :).